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Have you ever felt hopeless? Or even more beyond that. Have you ever been helpless?
There are situations where you are faced with a problem that has no solution. There are moments where there is no way out. These are moments that form precious parts of you, precious like the overrefined, pretentious affectations of a sullied mind. Those decisions that you make when you are at your wits end are usually those that you hide in your innermost being; unable to make up your mind about whether they were correct or it was just the easiest thing to do.

I have envied people that have had formative moments in their life, moments that they look back on and they don't appreciate for what they were. Something that outlined a part of their personality. A personality that is all the stronger for it. But now it hits closer to home. It hits where it hurts. Someone very close to me has fallen short at an important part of his life and... I am incapable of offering any help.

So I am helpless; I am not faced with the decisions to make up for the short comings, I am not burdened by the consequences either, but I am left to watch. Amputated. Removed of all my abilities but that of speech.
I was never really good at talking.

I love you.

Everything will work out.

Your distant friend,
Your ever-present sister.